when she turns her sunny face away
and you dont know if its coming back
or if there’s anything you can do to get it back
the fear grips you
and the doubt has been passed on

part of me felt like a burden to her
part of me like a joy
which is the right part?

mommy i miss you
mother i need you
but please just forget all about me
because im obsessed with you
narcissistic child that i am

mommy i hate you
for letting me grow up
for putting me down
for being all powerful
for ever cutting that cord